Sometimes I get so tired when things are going well
that I don't even know I'm exhausted. Today was that
kind of day. It's crazy how I struggle against my
inclination to give up and just do nothing. I tried
marking, I did some painting, I talked to my kids,
and tidied, and all the while I should have just
gone back to bed. Most of the time I'm so cheerful,
that my family and friends really notice when I'm
not. Today I was about as lackluster as the grey
and snowing day outside.
Never mind -- by supper time I picked myself up
again, and Steven and I went to He's Just Not That
Into You. I really enjoyed the movie -- it's not
superb, but it was a treat, and a good way to get
back to my normal self. Now I'm taking that tired
self to bed.
The picture tonight is a painting from my
art group Tuesday night gathering.
Have a letting-yourself-rest-and-relax day.
I've had quite the opposite struggle the last couple of days: too much busyness, when I really should be lying down and telling the world to go away for a while. I consider it avoidance behavior; jumping from distraction to distraction, avoiding thinking about what's really bothering me.
ReplyDeleteI hope you'll let yourself be what you need most.
...Really admire your blog and painting, Barbara.
Hi Edgar,
ReplyDeleteIt's actually the same problem -- but I sorted it out. Our weekday lives are so packed that we need the weekends to be a bit slower. My older son is just home from Korea and he hasn't adjusted to the time, so he's up at all hours talking to Korea.
Mothers are trained to jump up at the slightest sound. Now I've adjusted and I slept well last night. Problem solved. I hope you
take yourself aside and relax and quit worrying about whatever's on your mind. Whatever it is it will all work out. I love your paintings and your blog too.
Take care,
Barbara
What wonder, Barbara! As I said before, I don't know how you do it and I am pleased to hear that you did CHILL a bit finally!
ReplyDeleteHi Liza,
ReplyDeleteYou are funny. Yes I did. I'm very good at chilling, but I do it as part of a routine. When I'm thrown off my routine I get nervous -- we're making new routines here now, and all is well.
xoxoxoxBarbara
P.S. I don't know how you can say you're amazed at me. I know you're working on a second book called --
All The Houses in France.